You've heard about Impostor Syndrome? No matter how successful we appear, many academics feel like frauds . We think we're not nearly as smart and hard-working as we appear to be. When we're praised for our work or intellect, we think "if only they knew."
The truth is, very few academics are frauds, we're just neurotic.
Yesterday, a colleague saw me with the littlest child and asked, "How do you do it?" I thought to myself, if only she knew.
If only she knew how many dirty clothes are on my living room floor. If only she knew I yelled at my son for smearing glue on the walls (and then discovered he'd been making a card for me). If only she knew how many times I'd fed my children frozen pizza for dinner. (I did warm it up first.)
Then it hit me: I have Impostor Syndrome in all facets of my life!
Then I had another revelation: What if I'm not the only one?
Maybe other people yell at their kids, feed them crap on busy days, and have dirty houses. Maybe we're all hiding this because we all feel like impostors!
I'm just going to tell myself that's true. If it's not, please don't disillusion me.